I left a lot of guys in my life. Like one moment I gave signs that I like him and the next day I'll be ignorant and won't reply any of his messages. Oh yeah, a lot.
I really need to explain why I did this, even though this blog has no readers. I did that because I do not feel like letting someone into my heart when I was fifteen because of my experiences when I was fourteen. Well, only one. Nik. He didn't knew it, but what the hell. I love hearing his stories and I love telling mine and I was waiting for him to take a hint.
I hated the idea of me with someone else. I once told Nik about another guy I liked, I saw something in his eyes. It was a moment but I stopped immediately after seeing it. He told me he sees it on my face too when he told stories about his exs or he was hanging out with another girl. I guess what we were talking about was jealousy.
I'm sorry to bore you with stories of this. Me and Nik. It's something I need to put in writing.